I don’t believe in a God… (Maybe you do?)
I do pray… I believe you can only pray… to whatever you believe in… God… Nature… Synchronicity… Faith or Fate… I believe praying is a solitary dance… sometimes a fight, a conversation, a going forward and back, a trust and a letting go…
Letting go, letting go, let go, let go, go, god, God. Letting go and letting God.
I’d like to share a poem by Mary Oliver. It’s just such a great reminder (for me too) to not get caught up in the rat-race of things happening right now.
And I made a playlist for this Easter weekend. Dance your prayer, pray your dance. Mixcloud Mix: Good God
Do you feel like dancing? I teach Open Floor Dance @Home. Please look out for my Wednesday evening classes.
You do not have to become totally zen,
You do not have to use this isolation to make your marriage better, your body slimmer, your children more creative.
You do not have to “maximize its benefits”
By using this time to work even more,
write the bestselling Corona Diaries,
Or preach the gospel of ZOOM.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body unlearn
everything capitalism has taught you,
(That you are nothing if not productive,
That consumption equals happiness,
That the most important unit is the single self.
That you are at your best when you resemble an efficient machine).
Tell me about your fictions, the ones you’ve been sold,
the ones you sheepishly sell others, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world as we know it is crumbling.
Meanwhile the virus is moving over the hills, suburbs, cities, farms and trailer parks.
Meanwhile The News barks at you, harsh and addicting,
Until the push of the remote leaves a dead quiet behind,
a loneliness that hums as the heart anchors.
Meanwhile a new paradigm is composing itself in our minds,
Could birth at any moment if we clear some space
Meanwhile, on top of everything else you are facing,
Do not let capitalism coopt this moment, laying its whistles and train tracks across your weary heart.
Even if your life looks nothing like the Sabbath,
Your stress boa-constricting your chest.
Know that your ancy kids, your terror, your shifting moods,
Your need for a drink have every right to be here,
And are no less sacred than a yoga class.
Whoever you are, no matter how broken,
the world still has a place for you, calls to you over and over
announcing your place as legit, as forgiven, even if you fail and fail and fail again.
Remind yourself over and over, all the swells and storms that run through your long tired body.
All have their place here, now in this world.
It is your birthright to be held deeply, warmly in the family of things, not one cell left in the cold.
:: by Mary Oliver for Corona Times ::
I pray you are with loved ones, that you are healthy, that you have solitude and company. That you are supported and feeling loved.
Hester Hudig
